how low can you go?

sometimes i feel like i'm playing, how low can i go?

i didn't sleep well last night.  dreaming about 2 mothers who we told to take their kids to the ER, and they wouldn't do it.  they wanted to watch and wait.  one we weren't quite so terribly concerned about. but the other, needed to go, and mom wouldn't do it.  she also wanted to watch and wait.  problem is, i'm not sure who the we was.

and this morning, my period started. first one since april of last year.  the prednisone has pretty much kept it away.  so, i stopped off and had my labs done this morning. 27.  down from 58, 3 weeks ago.  so when dana called with results and orders, i asked her if i could stay on the 5 of prednisone, and watch and wait.  see what happens.  and she said, that was ok w carter.  redraw in 2 wks.

see what happened there?  my subconscious knew the subject would come up.
and i'm playing, how low can i go?  i know full well that when my numbers start dropping, they continue to drop.  there's no stopping them. the lowest i've gone, has been 2.  and the prednisone goes up, until the numbers go up, and then i drop back to 2.5 or 5, until the cycle starts all over.
this time, i'm thinking that when the petechia shows up, i might deliberately not go do labs.  wonder how long a person can hang out at next to nothing platelets?